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[dokkaebi]

So it's summer. And it's not summer vacation because that would imply only a brief hiatus between two periods of the same-old-same-old, and I'm done with school for now. For the first time in my life, I'm done with school on a semi-long-term basis. Semi-long-term because I plan to come back, for an MFA in creative writing and an MA in history and an MLIS, but have no definite plans on when or where or how that'll be happening.

Being a grown-up? Kinda scary.

At least I know more or less where I'll be at the end of summer. Which, ironically, is back in school but on the other side of the teacher's desk, and on the other side of the world. Terrifying thought, innit? Me, teaching children. Worrisome at best.

Stuff I'm working on now:

getting together F4 visa docs

submitting metamorph to DHC

taking care of my poor ears because I stretched them too fast like a dumbass

Vince is moving out tomorrow morning in a few hours, taking half of the living room furniture and ruining my life. Geh. Everything is happening so fast. After the past year, what with applying to futurethings and writing my thesis, I'd really like to just curl up and hibernate for a couple months, but I guess I'll just have to hit the ground running.

Comments

[magicalmartha]

I know how you feel about hitting the ground running - I kinda feel like a failure because everything around me is like "GET A JOB. MOVE OUT OF YOUR PARENTS HOUSE. BE AN ADULT." and I'm seriously just like, really? Can't I do...nothing, for a while? I've been working so hard...surely I deserve a break?

I just want to sleep, eat, watch movies, and occasionally leave my house for slurpees for, like, a month. Why isn't that acceptable? *cry*

[magistrate]

This.

And what magicalmartha said. I really want a vacation, but it may just be all uphill from here.

ARGH, basically. Six months from now I'll have student loan places breathing down my neck. The adult world SUCKS sometimes. And I still have to find a job. *flails over everything*

[dokkaebi]

I've been wanting to move out for years. Am I ready for it? Prooobably not. It just struck me that besides my single in the dorms, which doesn't count because we were all in and out of each other's rooms 24/7, I have never in my life lived on my own. Even in Ireland, thousands of miles away from my parents, I was still living with five other American girls in the same boat.

AGH. REAL INDEPENDENCE. WHY.

[dokkaebi]

Why couldn't we all have been born in SCOTLAND, and have received FREE higher education and lived in a beautiful country with tons of fluffy cows? O, cruel fate!